Well my Terri is home safe and sound. She enjoyed seeing all you Mainers,and is ready to move back. She spent some time with my mom which was a challenge. My mom won't take her antidepressant pill and so she is a mess. She doesn't shower, she is eating unhealthy food and not cleaning her apartment. I have 1 cleaning job here and i have decided to pay someone to clean her place once a month. I spent Thursday night a lone, Jerry went to Michigan Thursday morning at 4am and won't be back till Saturday afternoon sometime. His company sends the drivers out to what is called a skid pad, where they drive a tractor trailer down a run way and they use a computer to lock up the brakes and through them into a skid to train them how to handle it. Jerry should do really good, several times he has skid out of control on snow and ice so he knows how it's done. I had prayed God would have a divine appointment with him. He said the man that rode out with him is a church goer, not a christian but a church goer, he knows the difference. This week we are going to try to make sauerkraut and make our own apple cider seeing the price had jumped in NY and they didn't have any at Frog pond in NY, i guess the apple crop in NY was not good this year. Monday we will find out what day we need to take Terri to Barb's, she is thinking on the 6th of Nov. She will stay for 3 weeks to a month. The leaves are beautiful here, Terri and i have been wanting to hike a trail that is 3 miles up to the top of one of the mountains that overlooks the Roanoke valley, hopefully we can get it done next weekend. My love to all, Holley

Just woke from a nightmare, i wrestled with evil spirits, Pleading in Jesus name. They are real and it just gave me insight into what is going on here in my home. I WILL NEVER QUIT CRYING OUT FOR JERRY and the devil WILL NOT GET THE VICTORY! Please pray! Please pray!

We are heading out tonight to take Terri to NY. She is visiting Maine with a friend,sniffle, sniffle, wish it was me going, miss you all so very much. We will leave at 11:30 tonight and plan on coming right back, Jerry has to get up for work Friday morning at 1:45. Wish i could visit, i haven't even seen my mom's new place. When she gets back she will be staying with my mom till Friday then coming home on the 20th. She will once again leave once we find out Barb's c-section date. Jerry will have to take a 4 day weekend in order to take her to Florida. It sure is going to be quiet around here but i guess i had better get used to it. I might have to learn how to nit, yuck, i would rather milk a cow. Last Saturday i said to Jerry that the house seemed cozy and peaceful for some reason, i didn't realize it but he hadn't turned the tv on. Thursday and Friday he sat after work and looked through one of his woodworking magazine's not turning on the tv for a couple of hours, puts a whole different mood in the home. I do pray one of the first things he does when he gets saved is get rid of that thing. Those of you who had one in the past know exactly what i mean. Have a blessed day!

Had a very nice day, we finally went to the Amherst church. Betty Bylers niece was there, dating a young man from the church. We seen 2 young ladies that used to attend Grace many years ago, Julia and Suzy Coleman. They live in OH and were just visiting. It was neat listening to her and Terri talk about things they did when they were young. It also broke the ice, at least we knew people there. We sat next to Brenda.... not Shrock but she is a cousin to you ladies in Maine. Very sweet. Their is something about being with people that have the love of Jesus and seeing the preacher shed tears when he preaches. 3 sisters came to meet us but maybe when we visit once a month they will reach out more. Their is one young lady Terri's age who she wasn't there, Dianne Horner, her family attended Grace for a time some years back.I also rode to NY with her and his sister. Her sister sat and ate with us and gave us company at the fellowship meal today. Very nice girl.It took us 2 hours to get to Amherst, Jerry said it would be fine if we wanted to go once a month... well... yes.. I really loved the songs we sang, miss those tunes. I can't tell you how lost or out of place i feel with out a like minded church, i still feel God is using us here but i need a time of oneness with God's people. And the simplicity of the church. Well i will keep my focus upward and not outward and do and be what God wants me to be, weather or not i understand why i'm here in this place. Please continue to pray for us and specially Jerry. All my love, Holley

Please Please Pray for Jerry, we can not carry this burden alone, If you would be willing to also fast i would appreciate it as well. One minute he is sweet and loving, the next he is angry and full of hate. He will say something to me and later will deny saying it as if i made it up. He has accused us of hiding things from him and sneaking behind his back. He is in such turmoil. We need to pray him through. Thank you! My love, Holley.

Had a wonderful 4 days! My sister Sherry surprised me on Sunday, her mother in-law and her sister in-law drove her down. I grew up with her in-laws, we used to go to their house every weekend and us kids would play kick the can till late in the night. Her sister in-law never married and takes care of her mother. They spoiled us, they gave us a $50.00 gift card to Panera Bread and a $25.00 card to our favorite Yogurt shop. They left a card saying their is a gift coming in the mail. Cindy, the sister in-law, told us about gluten free bisquick then bought Terri 6 boxes which cost 4.99 each, that was so sweet of her. We had so much fun, i haven't laughed that hard in a while. We ate way to much. We talked about a road trip together, maybe Florida. Today back to our routine. The weather is getting cooler, not looking forward to winter but i guess i can't stop it from coming. I do like the cooler days for making soup. Hope everyone is well. My love, Holley.

Good Thursday morning to all. We have been busy canning tomatoes and applesauce. We have been blessed with good prices on tomatoes, at first it was going to be $12 a half bushel for seconds, we have paid $10, $8 and $7.50 for good tomatoes. We picked a half bushel off our apple tree, a little tart so i have not decided what i am going to do with them yet. We have been enjoying our deer, Jerry has the fawns coming to feed on apples about 4 feet from him. We are planning on hunting this year to fill our freezer. About a month or so ago we seen a large bear cross our field and i guess he's back, the neighbor's have seen a 600 pound bear. We always know he's around because we don't see any deer. I would think he could take down a fawn. Jerry has been just aching to get back to Maine. We have decided to take 2-3 years to get things in order before trying Maine again, and that brings me to my prayer request. Jerry may have a chance to bring his truck home and have a dedicated run but we would have to move an hour and a half more north, which would be a good thing. It would be near Stuarts Draft just off 81. He would still be at the same company. We are really excited because we would have a choice of churches and would also be able to go to the Amherst church. Terri and i would have the car so we could get work, for me just a few cleaning jobs. Plus we would be able to buy a house which would be about $300 cheaper than what we are paying in rent. It would give us more opportunities to meet people and friends. Jerry and i are going to go to the Bank to get pre-approved so when the right property comes up, we can jump on it.Please pray that God would clearly show us what we are to do, i see nothing negative about this move but i want what God wants for us as a family. Here on the hill Terri and i feel so secluded, and another vehicle would just cost us more money. Another plus of moving is that instead of getting up at 1:45 every morning to see Jerry off to work, he would be able to get up at 4:30 for work. I don't sleep well any way and it seems about the time i get to sleep the alarm goes off, then i have trouble getting back to sleep after he leaves. We have found a few houses that we can afford there with everything we need, like a work shop for Jerry and room for a few beef and chickens. Also he might be able to use his company's box truck to move us, just pay for fuel. My mom is finally moved in an apartment in Walton and was cleared by my brother to drive again. She has a lot of adjusting to do but seems to be doing well, she has lost the use of her thumb, but seems to be getting along fine. Well Terri and i are late for our morning walk then more tomatoes to do. Have a wonderful and blessed day! PS. still waiting on some BABY reports.....